These thoughts led me to question the idea of talking to people who do know (roughly) how much time they have left on earth. What if I could talk to people with 'known mortality' about time. Their life, perceptions of time and how that has been shifted by their knowledge.
The Life I Didn’t Live is another result of this film experiment; a short, indie documentary made as part on my ongoing experiment exploring how people aware of their own mortality perceive their life and time.
In it, retired policeman and art lover, Peter Murray, takes us through his extraordinary life, seen through the lens of two of his paintings - one featuring highlights of his lived life, the other filled with moments he wish had happened, but didn’t.
This film is currently being submitted to festivals but I’m happy to send a private link if you’d like to watch.
A little more context for you - several years ago, I made a short video for Wellcome, featuring end-of-life doulas, something I'd never heard of until that point but found fascinating: people who help one prepare for death. The organisation that helped was Living Well Dying Well and you can see the video below:
Creatively, films such as this are a fantastic challenge. Before meeting Peter, I knew next to nothing about him and everything shot was done in a single morning - interview, painting, outdoor sequences - plus lots more that didn't serve the final journey. After filming Peter, I was put in touch with another person through Living Well Dying Well but I'll save that for another post as it's turning into the most incredible filmic journey I've ever had.